Following Good Instincts
In the early 90’s, (probably the 70’s and 80’s as well, truth be known), I hurt. My gut hurt, my shoulders and shoulder blades ached, most likely from an old auto injury I was in while pregnant with my 2nd son…and while I probably wasn’t aware of it, there were pieces of my soul that hurt too. Despite weekly massages and acupuncture and the beginning inklings of a deep knowing that part of this was emotional pain, I continued to carry around the yoke of all the ghostly injuries from my past and past mistakes that had literally constructed who I had become.
Miraculously I found a massage practice called MFR which is the subtle and mostly gentle unwinding of muscular apparition and fascia which only can seem to ‘remember’ how to be AFTER the injury. This healing touch gave my body (and mind) an opportunity to allow a re-circuitry of the unwanted messages that kept me bound. It was huge for me. Emotionally and physically.
I sort of believe all of us can come to an ‘unwinding’; and if you are here, reading my words, you may be on a path to find a way to heal from financial mistakes and poor decisions.
Unwinding can only begin when we listen to our inner knowing–that still, small instinctual nudge that says something doesn’t feel right. It’s time to seek a teacher. ‘That which you are seeking, is seeking you.’ Rumi
When this happens and we are ready, the teachers will come. I approach my work as a schoolroom ready to educate and fix what needs fixing. No holds barred. I use my own personal wisdom and experience to guide you to answers about your financial missteps that you might not have considered heretofore.
This requires patience and surrender and a purposeful letting go…peace in the simplicity of waiting for the right answers and path to follow. “Every step is on the path.” Lao Tzu
At the time of this writing, I’m listening to the sound of the river…it’s colder here and I look silly in my California shorts with cold feet slipped into my ughs to keep them warm. After an easy drive to my beautiful oregon riverhome, my heart is always full and appreciative to the words of Clarissa Pinkola Estes, whispering her wisdom to me along my drive helping me understand what it means to ‘sing over the bones’ and to nurture the wild wolf woman always in me. The pack leader, the teacher, the one who can help. I need her. She is my teacher when my way is dimmer.
If you haven’t listened to or read her book, Women Who Run With Wolves, I encourage you to do so as you may well find a woman or man who looks like you amongst the pages of Grimm Brothers folk tales and beautifully hand-crafted prose metaphorically singing to you similes between wolf and wild woman. I have been reading and re-reading this book since 2002 and never once has it failed to inspire me and show me something new about who I am.
Her wisdom can speak to us all about being open, vulnerable and willing to ‘unlearn’ our old stories about ourselves and forge new and more appropriate healing measures to regain a lost and weary self. My practice dedicates my wisdom and knowledge to help you find your own individual answers to unwinding the messiness from financial mistakes. I promise you that I can help you…and so, if my words speak to you, then you are in the right place. Right now.
“Wild woman is an endangered species. (So) be these things that deep down in your bones you know how to be. Rock the idea until it becomes young again. Be the courageous and patient woman (or man); don’t be distracted by fantasies. May you have a mate who reverberates with your rhythm. Forgive a little, forget a little, and create a lot.
And the grandmothers of your great great great great granddaughters will remember you and honor you.”
Excerpt from Women Who Run With Wolves, Clarissa Pinkola Estes.